Tear Down Walls & Start Again


I felt very 70's in this outfit today... This crop top from Chloe is so cute and looks great with my Grandpa's Navy Pants! I really like how plain this outfit is but then you have the lace detail in the top and the big necklace, and bam! It's a purdy outfit :) I also think it's funny I had a Boaters hat on and Navy Pants, haha soo nautical. Oh, sorry for the amount of glasses pictures, I just haven't wanted to wear my contacts, I really dislike my glasses.

} Outfit
  Crop top } Chloe's via Here to There
  Pants } Gpa's WWII Navy Pants
  Necklace } Anthropologie
  Boaters Hat } Lost & Found Vintage
  Shoes } Target, last fall

Jen and I took these pictures next door where I used to live. Where we're standing use to be my living room. Yep, I used to hang out there with a roof over my head. They tore down the house a couple months ago. It's strange moving next door and watching your old house be torn down.

The local firefighters were practicing on the house to learn how to cut vents and escape opening in case a house was on fire... So why do I bring this house up? Well it was the first place Kevin and I lived together. It was where we had our parties, met new neighbors, learned to love Royal Oak, and friends came to hang out. It's really hard watching that be torn down. But it was also a place that I wouldn't ever want to live again. Every relationship has issues and sometimes hit a really hard part. That house represented it to me. It's bittersweet seeing it gone. But one part of me just wishes I could have back the first few months living in that dump (it really was a dump). I had just graduated and so hopeful for the future. But time showed all that came from that house was a year full of trials, hardships, job losses, and heart aches. Life can be hard, and it sucks, but sometimes you just need to move 50 feet away to try to find a new beginning. Shed the old you and find someone new out of the rubble.

That house is gone, and I need to continue with my life; I can't wish for school again, cause it's gone like the house; I can't get upset that my friends are moving away for careers and new lives; I need to let those feelings of miss and longing go, and move forward even if it's just next door or hundreds of miles away. This past year and a half has been very rough for me, there's been so much turmoil in my life. And it's hard being away from family and childhood friends. I hope this struggle with myself over this period of time soon becomes clear, I have wonderful new and old friends, a good job, and great prospects for grad school. Sorry for being mopey sounding, I just wish that this next year is great and that all those hurt feelings of insecurity and jealousy were destroyed when that house came down.

But I will always remember the amazing times I did have and that I miss so badly.

Again sorry if this is too much life for you to read. But we all are human and we all have problems and need a hug. I don't want to be like some bloggers and not be completely honest, life sucks sometimes. But sometimes it doesn't, I am so excited about this clothing exchange I am a part of and getting to know these incredible girls. So yeah, sometimes you have to tear down the old moldy walls and build up some fresh ones... with lots of windows for sunshine, haha



Amber Blue Bird | October 16, 2010 at 1:07 PM

I love the navy pants with the lacey top, cute outfit

Chloe, Butterfly Cupcakes | October 16, 2010 at 3:24 PM

I love how you styled it with pants. Moving house is a little bit sad but also exciting, I hate change.

Anonymous | October 16, 2010 at 7:37 PM

Hugs to you Lauren. Watching any place any of us had lived would be HARD! It sounds like you are on a more solid track now...

And you're looking happy and dapper in today's outfit. Where did you get the necklace?

She is Sara | October 17, 2010 at 5:28 PM

YES!!! The coolest pants ever! I love them with the top!

It is crazy, I remember walking past that house all the time thinking that a bunch of young hipsters probably lived there, and they were probably cool people and I was pissed because at the time all the people in our complex were old. Low and behold it turns out YOU lived there!

It gets hard moving on, but you have so much cool stuff coming up in your life! You are going to New York in a few weeks, your going to become a famous artist and I am going to come visit you in your kick ass new place and you are going to be the most stylish artist who also has an awesome blog!

PS-Your new house is way cooler, it has a POOL and a SLIDE, it's pretty beans, just sayin'.

jess | October 17, 2010 at 6:36 PM

I love the big necklace.